Wednesday, September 15, 2010

one of those days...

Here's how our day is going today:
Kase wants nothing to do with anything that's not eating, his pacifier, or being held.
Here's how Molly has spent her morning:
She has decided that she is going to spend the morning howling at every little thing that moves in the backyard. No bird, leaf, person, squirrel, etc goes unnoticed.
To try and make the morning go a little better, and help Kase sleep for awhile, we went for a walk. While walking through town I was going through my list of woes. I have a list a mile long of things that need to be done before we put our house on the market, but I can't get anything done because I have a crabby baby. My dog howls at every moving thing, which makes it difficult to open any windows because I have a fear of disturbing the neighbors, which makes my house extremely hot when there is no air flowing through it. We have a very large medical insurance bill that I have NO IDEA how we're going to pay because I don't get a paycheck until October 25...yes, OCTOBER 25! I never see my husband because he's so busy with school and football. Kase never sees Keith either because by the time Keith gets home it's time for Kase to go for bed. These were my woes during my walk. Here is what I heard:
"My child, what do you always say about being stressed?"
"I know, I'm too blessed to stress...but I've got so much going on and I can't do it all!"
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."
"Yes, I'm definitely weak. How do I do it all and still be a good wife and mommy?"
"Your job right now is to love and care for your family. Your to-do list comes second."
"But I still need to get it all finished!"
"Be still, child, and know that I am God."
"But what about that medical bill? How will we pay it?"
"Be still...and KNOW."
"OK...I'm still. I'm listening."
I've never been one who hears God's voice very clearly. But today I did...and it was beautiful.

1 comment:

  1. Hang in there, lady! I appreciate you sharing your heart.. and you sure have one cute little boy :)

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